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Old memories....

I found this on You Tube. Why was it up there? I don't know, but it sure brings back a lot of good memories.

Can you find me? Bet you you can't!

Who wants to go to So Cal with me?!

Man! I was so juiced to go to So Cal for our 4 day Spring Break. I bought my plane ticket already and had a whole plan to fly down there to visit my best friend and drive back up together. Then he tells me today, that that's cancelled cuz he has to go to his god sister's wedding. I'm sooo bummed right now. I have a non-refundable ticket. I really wanted to go to Disneyland, and enjoy the southern California weather. I wanted to go the beach and just relax for a few days, but that dream is cancelled. Darn you NAM!! So who wants to go with me? Let's go have some fun!

Over-rated Holidays

I seriously think Valentine's Day, some others would call it Singles' Awareness Day ( I used to call it that,) is way too over rated. It's just another Hallmark holiday. I probably made too much of a deal out of it, but at the end of the night, I realized, who the hell cares if I'm single and dateless, or taken and out on a romantic date? No one really cares, other than myself. It's just whatever I make out of it. I ended up running errands and working the whole day. I didn't get home until midnight. A few friends came over and we just watched a movie, drank some beer, and chilled. I'd say that was a pretty good day. In the end, at least I was with friends and not alone. I had fun, and I hope they did too. But yea, that was one of the best Valentine's Day I've had in a while, even though I was dateless. I worked and made money instead of wasting it going out, and I got to hang out with friends. Yup, it was a good day.

I hope everyone else had a wonderful Valentine's Day!

I set myself up to fail.....

At 21 years old, I think I just had my first epiphany, or the first one I that I've realized I have. So, I was on my way back from an event and love songs were playing. I was staring into the distance as figures pass by. My mind was blank, and all of a sudden, it hit me. I set myself up to fail when it comes to my personal life. Why do I say that? Because I am a hopeless romantic. I can sit there and daydream about things that can possibly happen, my own fairy tale. That's probably what I think about in bed everynight when I can't sleep. I can think of so many "romantic" scenarios that I can probably write my own book about it. But you know what? I live in the real world unfortunately, and fairy tales don't happen in the real world. Prince Charming doesn't exist. Yet for some dumb reason, I still had my hopes that I might find mine some day... hah! Time for me to wake up and get a reality check I suppose. If Prince Charming does exist, he's not mine and is already taken, or not interested, or we have bad timing, etc... There are so many reasons telling me it's just not right. <sigh> I'm a grown up now. I shouldn't believe in fairy tales anymore.